Abyss of Life

i passed!

2006-11-29T22:39:00.001-08:00

Congratulations JANICA ELYSE YU UY!

You passed the entrance examination for MAS.

Thursday, April 26, 2007
at Mapúa INTRAMUROS.

-->Your exam score also qualifies you to enroll in the following degree program(s):ACT, AR, BA, BT, CE, CHE, CHM, COE, CS, ECE, EE, EMG, ENT, ESE, GEG, HRM, ID, IE, IEMG, INT, IT, ME, MSE, PCM, PSYA, PSYB

woo! can you believe it?! i'm was hella scared after every entrance examination i took... i was so scared that i wouldn't pass into any of the 3 schools i applied in.
And when Ron told me about mapua having the results up into their site...
I went woopee to find out that i passed.
Mapua... I took multimedia arts.
And i passed MAS. lol sooo happy.
Now all i gotta do is wait for UP and UST results...
but i'm so relieved that i have a school set...
Oh manohmanohmanohmanohmanohmanohmanohmanohmanohmanohmanohmanohmanohmanohmanohman!!!!
Hahaha.... well i'm happy today...
No classes and i passed Mapua exams... hahahahahahah!
almost all of us passed except 2 people...
But Mapua gave them an option to get another course that they are able to.
Good for them...
Man it's almost my sister's bday, mini fair then christmas then NEWYEAR!
time really flies... wow... 2007 here i come!
Then next thing is graduation! hahahahaha~
maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan...
i want to go to the xavier wish bazaar... but no one to come with me... i saw 2 really rad shirts from wallis that i really want to buy.... hahaha hope i find someone to come with soon.
oh well... okay that's all i guess i just came here to tell you guys i passed in MAPUA... hahaha
1 down 2 to go hahahah!

Congratulations JANICA ELYSE YU UY!
You passed the entrance examination for MULTIMEDIA ARTS AND SCIENCES.

Should you desire to pursue your application for admission, please report to the Admissions Office for the payment of reservation fee (1,000 PhP, non-refundable). Please make your payment on or before April 12, 2007. Thursday, April 26, 2007
at Mapúa INTRAMUROS.

-->Your exam score also qualifies you to enroll in the following degree program(s):ACT, AR, BA, BT, CE, CHE, CHM, COE, CS, ECE, EE, EMG, ENT, ESE, GEG, HRM, ID, IE, IEMG, INT, IT, MAS, ME, MSE, PCM, PSYA, PSYB

NICA

hmm just a survey

2006-10-30T05:12:00.000-08:00

1. Have you had more than 5 different serious relationships? i have never had a relationship
2. Have you had your birthday?Yes
3. Been to church?Yes
4. Cried yet? Yes
6. Pulled an all nighter? Yes
7. Drank Starbucks? Ice blended choco frap please!
8. Went shopping? yeah sorta...
9. Been camping? summer camps?
10. Been to the beach? yeah!
11. Bought something for over $200? nope
12. Met someone? yes new people
13. Been out of state? out of country!
14. Gone Snowboarding? nope would want to though!

Have you...
1. Hugged someone? Yep!
2. Slept in someone else's bed? Yes... hmm
3. Snuck someone over? Nope
4. Snuck out of your own house?Nope... i'm a good girl lOL!
5. Gotten Drunk? Nope
6. Lied? yeah
7.Gone over your cell phone bill? I'm prepaid!
9. Been called a whale? nope
10. Drove somewhere? nope
11. Done something you regret? maybe... dunno forgot hahah

[[Lasts...]]
Last Thing you bought? hmmm... a very awesome brown furry scarf thingy
Last Person you hugged? hmm... might be my cousin at taiwan... man... was a long time ago.
Last Person to called you? phone? If phone then Kyle... if just called... my mom.
Last person to text you? Criselda
When was the last time you felt stupid? i don't remember those things haha!
Who was the last person you danced with? Jaime... my friend at my junior prom
Who did you last yell at? long time ago
What did you do today? nothing haha

TEN FACTS
01. Hometown: QC, Philippines
02. Natural hair color: dark brown
04. Hair style: weird layered
05. Eye color: brown
06. Height: 5'4
07. Pets:1 dog
08. Mood: mixed emotions

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE
01.have you ever been in love?Nope
02. Do you believe in love: yes
03. Why did your LAST relationship fail? I've never had a relationship.
04. Have you ever been heartbroken: yeah
05. Have you ever broken someone's heart: did i? i don't know
06. Have you ever fallen for your best friend? is he my best friend? haha
07. Have you ever loved someone and never told them? just like... not love
08. Are you afraid of commitment?: nope... it's what i want
09: Would you ever date one of your ex's? nope
10. Have you ever had a secret admirer: i dunno...

TEN THINGS
01. Love or lust:Love.
02. Liquor or beer:Liquor.
03. Night or day:Night. All night.
04. One night stands or relationships?Relationships
05. TV or Internet?Internet.
06. Pepsi or Coke: Pepsi
07. Wild night out or romantic night in? both hahaha!
08. Black or white: GREY???

TEN EMOTIONS
01. Are you missing someone right now? sorta
02. Are you happy?Yes.
03. Are you talking to anyone right now:nope
04. Are you eating:No.
05. Are you German:no
06. Are you Irish:no
07. Are you French:No.
08. Are you Italian:No.
10. Do you like someone right now: think so... not sure hahaha

Intrams

2006-09-26T04:50:00.001-07:00

September 21,2006

You can feel the tension and nervousness of every girl beside me...
Intramurals... my very last itrams in sshs... haha and our very first performance...!
THE FIRST EVER FEMALE DRUMMER are performing drumline today... awesome.
I'm so nervous of the outcome we are the opening act in the opening ceremony. haha
L-R (bottom to top)
Joanne Yap (Tomtoms) Janica UY [ME] (Tri-drum) Kristel Lune (Tri-drum)
Charm Chua (bass) Mae(Snare) Davica Hwang (Snare)
Gwyneth (Bass) Janelle (Tomtoms)
This is the set A girl drummers... I love em' soo much!
Are the uniform cool? Yeah you have to say yes because i designed them! To the very last detail!!!
Kaya if ever you flame my design! You are soo dead meat haha!
anywayz our performance went well! I made 1 mistake but it was not noticable!
Hahaha... we took alot of pictures!
It was great! the principal was impressed with us and we are looking forward to our practice on sembreak (NOVEMBER)
We had a meeting with sir eugene...
He said all we need to improve on is our smiles and energy level!
hahaha...
I'm so looking forward to our jackets...
I was so happy because alot of people complimented my design on the jogging pants!
Can't believe it! My BDAY is sssososooo near na!
SEPTEMBER 30!
I'm going to be 16 years old...
Yeah the big 1-6! lol
I hope my loved ones remember it...
Anywayz i have to go... haha we just had our long test! (September 26 ngayon)
sayang math ko pero i still have no idea what my scores on others are! haha...
La pasok sa thursday and half day sa wednesday lol
RELAXING DAY! loL
I think we are going to watch first day high on wednesday with Hazel and etc.
Looking forward to it... n.n
I joked with kristel telling her to buy me bikini for my bday hahahaha XD!!
hahaha joke lng! di ko kaya un! anywayz cge got to go!
bye
nica
Hahaha stig..

Yeah that's what i'm talking about!!!

2006-08-21T03:36:00.000-07:00

Hey... hahaha! Went to Edsa Shang Hotel yesterday and slept at room 911... I feel so goooooood! It's been a long time since i relaxed myself and stuff...! hahah!

Good news anyways! Filipino Buwan ng Wika contest is up! last practice is tomorrow! and we have our drummers flim showing tomorrow as well... hahaha Busy busy dizzy! We just had our BOR (Board of Review) test for our scout thing last sat! hahaha I was so nervous but i finished it!
ANyways i also got the news that Sir EUg is going to pick some girls to play! Yay! so excited! hahaha and... Raprap(pao) just informed me that i'm going to sing back up for our upcoming ylc in december. hahah...
and!!! our sec meeting for ylc is on friday! Man!!!!!!! BUSY!!!!!!!
Hahaha and our drummer practice is on wed thurs and fri! WOOOO!

I'm going to die with busyness again! I hope i can live! hahaha! hahaha
Oh man can't think of anything to say anymore... how lame can i get? I'm just so high right now! hahaha
I want to get out... i miss our BGC gimmicks!
i'm so excited for alot of things this year...
I was SEEN on tv! hahah during the WNCAA opening ceremony! I was the one holding the CKSC banner (scout) lol hahahaha! They said they saw me... too bad though... since i didn't see myself...
hahahahahahahaha! Can you say.... hmmm my first TV DEBUT?! hahahaha joke!!!!!
The athletes were so funny especially the CSB volleyball and bbol varsity players hahaha sobrang kulit nila! n.n

One of the players in CKSC asked me and talked to me...
gah........ ouch noh... they called me ate! hahahahaha!

Anyways what else? oh yeah we just finished our finals exams grabe i'm so nervous about the outcome.... man i need to pass our chinese math or i'm dead meat in the report card.... waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah............

Hmmm...............
I'm so bored... Ask me anything and i'll answer.... hahahaha (hahaha) i saw this in JV and martin's blog and i'm a gayagaya (NO! NOT GAY!) so what?! hahahaha
I think it was ask 5 questions and i'll answer back through the comment thingy!

Oh yeah.... i'm out!

Bad News and Good News!

2006-07-08T05:56:00.000-07:00

GOOD NEW FIRST!
I'm in! i got in praise and worship team! awesome! n.n I was so happy when i got the message that i was accepted! And i'm now part of that team... i was thinking:
Yay! At last something i could use to praise God... my voice...
although it's not that impressive... it's for God n.n

But let's move on with the bad news!
THE SCHEDULE CONFLICT!!!!!!! STUPID!!!!!!!!! i'm now regretting joining scout... OH MAN! i hate this... i hate myself! and tanga tanga kooooo!!!! I wanted to go back to CAT! but they are having the LT already and i might fail it! And if i fail that test i'm not going to graduate!!!!
WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!!!!! I HATE THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
STUPID TIME CONFLICT!

High School Musical Auditions!

2006-07-02T08:01:00.000-07:00

lol just kidding! n.n It's not really "The High school musical auditions" i'm going to talk about... but my own audition...
(Although i must say HSM is awesome! n.n)
Yes... this is no joke... i finally kicked my butt up and went to the front and sang for my audition.

What audition?! you might ask...
well it's for our church's Praise and Worship team n.n
I signed up to audition for vocalists (WOW!)
YOU SING????? well... sorta... i think so... heh n.n
the audition consists of three songs...

All that i need

Lost in Wonder
Free

3 awesome songs although i had difficulty with "Lost in Wonder" haha i found it high... >.<
It was on July 1 after our fellowship 6:30 pm onwards...

we finished 9 pm already... although i was contented with what i showed in front.

The first song was All that I Need... it was a nice song, i find it easy although i got all tense up and nervous that i didn't do my best infront...
i was singing with Joanne and Criselda we were the 2nd Batch of vocalists for that song. We had a group singing thing then later we repeated a part in the song solo... that made me weezy XD

I was the first to do the solo... i think i got the timing right... although i seldom looked at the audience (no-no) and my voice was shaking... well for me anyways... then Joanne and then criselda... we sang altogether then we sat down haha...!
After my solo i felt abit at ease... my nervousness leveled down and i wasn't shaking anymore...
i guess i got used to the audience... which was very supportive!

we watched the other people who auditioned and i practiced a bit quietly...
the instrumentalists were awesome n.n

After everyone sang and played the first song we went to the next song which is... dum dum...
Lost in wonder...
I felt myself tense up because i was so worried i wouldn't reach the high notes...
But thankfully i did it decently enough... my voice didn't crack XD! BIG RELIEF!
And i reached the notes on my solo part... wooo!
I was in the middle of Jackylin and Ithran... Ithran is mega cool n.n very talented.
And i reminded myself to smile and look at the audience!

Then after that we reached the last song...
They tried something different!
They made us stand beside each other then asked us to akapella the chorus of the song... i felt myself freeze up... i was the second one to do it... i was beside Kelvin and Joanne...
Before i started i inhaled deeply and just sang...
I felt myself smiling...
Even though i didn't think it was perfect i finished it without giving up...

I was so relieved after the audition!
But i'm happy i tried...
I mean even if i didn't get accepted... i tried my best and pour out my guts for God.
It was my first audition and my 2nd time singing infront of people...
mind you that my first time was years ago since i was still grade 2 that time...

I'm thankful that God helped me through that audition... i kept praying and it relaxed me...
And i did my all in that audition...
I'm just continue to pray...
we are going to get the answer within this week i think...
The people were nice and gave me good feedback... let's just pray it's good enough! n.n

and i'm thankful that i had an opportunity like this... this chance will definitely boost my self esteem and etc n.n
Win or Lose God knows your intentions... n.n
And He'll appreciate it!
That was for you God... n.n

- nica

First Day High

2006-06-12T05:18:00.000-07:00

First Day... Man... back to the books... well erm... not actually books since we don't usually use them too much.
I hate my crappy seat assignment... gah... (both chinese and english)
although english seating arrangement is quite tolerable.
Man... saw my friends and people at school again, and new faces as well for the newbies.
If you ask me if i was excited... one word... NOT.
I mean there's nothing different from last year, well except maybe i guess new classrooms and teachers and a new freaking SUBJECT!!!!
LITERATURE!!!! ROCKS MY ROCKS! lol
anyways nothing special, i did my regular thing. Bug and go around making fun of people, who got fatter, thinner and etc... haha just kidding.
I'm actually nice in school XD
Haha anyways back to my point.

New teachers:

Computer - Mrs. Guingab (VERY NICE teacher... too nice... well i just hope the students still will treat her with respect)
Social (Economics) - Mrs. Recosana (another very nice teacher... n.n)

Math - Mr. Ong (Well... uhmmm no comment... let's just hope i have fun with Math)
Science - Mr. Rios (Very nice teacher, he's actually a former grace teacher)
Ce - Pastor Edward Yu (Our former team teaching teacher... he's cool)

Filipino - Mrs. Adapon (Gave off a scary aura when she entered the classroom but she proved herself cool on my eyes)
HE - Mrs. Azanza (She substituted for Mr. Mirafuente a couple of times, she okay i guess)
PE/ Health - Mrs. Ortiz (Gaaaawwww.... not her again)
Music - Ms. Siodora (She's awesome hahah... i enjoyed her class, but my classmate were absolutely noisy)
English/ ADVISOR - Mr. Tapil (My advisor wow... english... lovely)
Literature - Mr. Corleto (yeaaaaaaaaaah... that's all i guess)

Well... that's all... hahaha.... now let's evaluate the subjects!

Comp - we are going to learn java... oh man forgot my visual basic and c++ skills... gah
Eco - well... we will tackle recent events which i think would be interesting enough.
Math - goodness.... i didn't understand him in our first day.... well because the past lectures last yr was a blurr for me... i hope i pass.
Science - Physics... man... MATH AGAIN! *dies* let's just hope i pass as well.
Ce - awesome... application of faith... LOVE ITT!!!!!
Filipino - well... El Fili!!!!!!! wooo.... let's hope i enjoy this like the NOLI! I loved the story...
He - gaaaaaaah...
Pe/ Health - gaaah.... the teacher.... gahh.... the subjects.
Music - we sang power of your love... awesome song.
Lit - well... we will have reading program for the 1st and 2nd grading... no idea yet what's instore...

That's my evaluation...
My Goal - TO PASS!!!!! TO ACE IT!!!
TO GET ACCEPTED IN UP
or if not...
UST!
PleaAAAse... UP sana...
TO SAVE MONEY.
TO GROW SPIRITUALLY
TO SHARE THE GOSPEL
TO ENJOY my last year in HS!

as for my classmates haha i have no comment. LOL
What else...
well I went to shagrila... and saw awesome kid's toys...

yes you heard me KID'S TOYS!!!!!
and i sooo want to buy!!!!
lol call me crazy but there is a photobooth toy that prints out pictures it's 4k.... GAAAAAAAAh MUST SAVE!!!!!!!
http://www.girltech.com
LOL i really want me... hahaha call me weird i don't freakin' care...
LOL
Man... we don't have toys like that when i was about 5 or 7.... gaaah... or maybe i just didn't see it... but anyways... awesome....
I'm saving for loads of stuff this year... i want new clothes and new stuff so i guess i'm going to save... XD
Must control myself from buying PUGOOOOO.... yummmm......

what else???
CHECK OUT MY SITE:
http://www.geocities.com/nicz_motoko

CHEcK OUT MY multiply and COMMENT!
http://www.nicauy.multiply.com
add me as well...

and my friendster as well!
Just type in my name...

- Nica

Gah! Pacheco's bday and whole loads of junk.

2006-06-02T01:08:00.000-07:00

Hey... Hmm so yeah ^ we went out last sunday... haha To greenhills. To cut it short i had an awesome time it was fun. I was the only girl but fe... who cares? i had been through gimmicks with me being the only girl. lol I had fun they had fun (hopefully)
It is actually the first time i went out with the church dude! n.n
We watch xmen3, it was so freakin' cold! I mean my body was soo numbed! But the movie was okay i guess... it isn't the best i have seen but it's okay. We have no pictures awww.... well what can i expect.... only girls take loads of pics when they go out. (experience) hahahaha
so yeah if you were wondering what is that above... well that's us! hahahaha XD yeah impressive isn't it?!
We played dota before watching xmen3... it was awesome... i KILLED! mwahaha lol =p ain't i cool? don't i rock?! hahaha JOKE!
Then we ate ar Gerry's grill... well hmmm cost 800+ for just the 8 of us. so it was okay price... thanks for the mathematical skills of pet? hahahaha lol!

So yeah... next topic! Hmmm...
Well school starts june 6 for me. I'm now officially part of the hs 4 -Yellow section... I despise yellow. -_- lol And it tso... haay... wonder who i get to hang with now. GAH! Can't believe i'm already a senior... it seems like last yr i was only a freshman. But oh well that's life.
Oh yeah if you are asking bout the flat stomach goal... hahaha! well i didn't exactly get it but at least it's not mega buldge. I can still show off my belly without being ashamed of it. (YEAAAAAh right... like i'll show em hahaha)
But i did take a freaking picture... (WHAT WAS I THINKING?!)
I want abs... hahaha! Laugh all you want who cares... hahaha
Now... I still have to get a 1x1 and 2x2 pictures for the starting of school. And i need to sort out my notebooks and buy new shoes! YEAH! NEWWWWW SHoes!
Well i want a new scanner... gaaaaaa... ours isn't working... useless thing... argh...

Yay i'm going to copy JV's idea and say... leave a comment and
ask 6 questions...
and i will answer every one of it!
WOOOOO!

I'm just freaking bored... so yeah...! ask away dudes and dudettes!

Hmmm....

2006-05-17T06:38:00.000-07:00

Hey... Hmm... ^ doll i did! hahaha base is from romantic muses forums.
Anyways today well actually this summer i had been wahat a friend called me "Bum" hahahaha. I think i have gained weight! ARGH! Annoying really... *phew* i still fit in my skirt! awesome... hahah but i got to lose weight!
Or else i wouldn't get my goal:
flat stomach! LOL
(don't laugh)
Well! I have to announce to you guys that MY SITE IS UP!
YEAH NEW LAYOUT! and loads of new bases and DOLLS!!!! awesome hahahahah.............
http://www.geocities.com/nicz_motoko
CHECK IT OUT!
Leave a message here or on the tagboard! n.n hahaha!
Anyways what else can i say?
well... a few things i want to talk about...
I heard Da Vinci Code is r18...
hahah i say... who cares! hahaha lol joke

Well... i'm not really interested in watching it, hahaha. lol (unless someone of corss LIBRE!!!)
lol
But i really don't care hahaha.... DVC is r 18 so what? STop complaining of not being able to watch the movie.
I mean come on it's a movie it's not a life death thing. So shut up with the whining of not being able to watch that!
-_- i think i'm going to get flamed here! hah....
So next...
Hahaha.... well... hmm
BACK TO REALITY
OH MY>>>>>>>>>>> I'm 4th yr na!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh noooo.................
Gah...
you know what i actually liked silent hill well because i liked thinking bout the story and imagining what really happened.
lol
In the infatuation side of life...
Well now i have conclude i suck... hahaha

My feelings suck...

I suck...

They suck...
lol
I have no future in that issue hahahaha!
I have drawn something new too! Hahahaha.... XD
And quite proud of it
Anyways what else? help me think of new topics...

I'm getting DULL!!!!!
okay gtg!

BYE

-nica

PS: pw audz is on july 1
I suck...
man i hope i get to atleast sing decently...

boring summer...

2006-04-25T02:26:00.000-07:00

Boring? well not all of it... hah!

haha... I went to my church's XPOSED summer conference! There were 2 camps, mainly the 1st con and 2nd con haha! Well... before we start... haha i just went to 1 of the 2. And that was the first!
I made it a goal of mine to be more friendlier than last time. Haha... Well... to tell you... well you'll see what happened later *winks*

Well! Okay! It was the day of the camp, and clearly me and my sister wasn't early haha... so yeah we rushed and stuff until we reached GGC (Grace Gospel Church) which was 15 minutes drive haha. Talk about lucky we live near... haha
So yeah i promised JV i would sit next to him, because i haven't seen him for a long time haha! But yeah... i was late so i haven't signed up for the bus... gah... and stuff... So we headed for the social hall and signed up for the bus. There were 3 buses... and NO SPACE LEFT!!!!! OMGGGGGGGGooodness! we are dead T,T
We have to split up if we want to have a seat. Well i ended up in Bus 3 while my Sister was somewhere else. Talk about Bad Trip... i was alone! Hell yeah! lol But then i remembered criselda was in Bus 3 too! woO!
I hurried to the bus, when Vince signaled to me to sit beside Achie Dinky... i gave Cris a sorry glance and sat beside atsi Dinky. ANd i txted bun and JV... a bit on the way haha!
It was..... HOW MANY HOURS ride... well i dont know but i just got to say my butt was numb... -_-

so yeah... we arrived whooo! lol hahaha Oh yeah Glad that timothy and his friend could come haha! n.n i was assigned to room 204... with 14 girls n.n with bunk beds haha!
Jessica, Katy, Joanne, Arian, Melisa, Analisa, Denise, Melanie, Abi, Meryll, Z and Lilian Tsi... n.n
It was cool they were nice, we talked about the shower scheds and such.
The first day was nice... n.n I met my teamates (YAY! Go Green!)
Ahiya Stanley, Lilian tsi, Katrina, Sheena, Dianne, Jackylin, Wilbert, Irvin, Me, Achie Helen and Kenneth, Kalmiya... i was cool i got to know some new people like Katrina, Sheena and Irvin! n.n
So yeah n.n the place was nice it wasn't that cold but it was okay.
then i met our dg group...
Atsi Evelyn was our counselor, while Z was our dg leader. Carmela, Me, Micah, Denise, Annie, Kutchi...
haha... the messages were nice and basically kinda guilt -trip for me... because i'm not being a good christian to God.
The whole camp experience was awesome i got to meet new people and even got to talk with old comers!
Let me say all the people i met and got to know:
Andrea, Philip, Willian, Joanne?? or na... not sure, Erika, my roomates and Dg group.... and my teamates... Theresa, Jeremy, Lance, Dennis, Ian, Brenson, Monte, Chris, Matthew, Mark... hahaha Andy, Patrick, Conrad, Charles, Richelle, Aaron, Adrian, Catherine, Irah, Kalmiya, Homer, Vinny, Kim... actually i met alot... i just can't name them by memory... got to see pictures. hahaha sorry.....
But it was fun i was able to complete my goal and i'm still doing it now. Hopefully i don't scare the sh*t out of them... -_- sorry for cursing...
And There was lots of crush thing going on..... -_-

Anywayz that's all i guess... Haha
Comments?????

V-A-C-A-T-I-O-N??

2006-03-26T04:12:00.000-08:00

Umm... American idol rocks? lol yeah i know cycle 4 na noh.... tagal na! But still hahaha! i mean if i have no chance to become one then watch? hahaha lol joke i dont want to be a model... haha asa ako...

lol
haha... so yeah.

Basically i have no idea what to say. Oh yeah i watched Nanny McPhee.... haha it's an awesome movie... not kiddy like actually. which surprised me because it was amusing entertaining and funny! n.n haha okay sya i mean ayos sobra! n.n
i'll give it a 9/10 hahaha ganda un ending and super not bitin n.n

hahaha man i'm so useless today hahaha i'm excited for tomorrow... hopefully we will go watch a band tomorrow n.n Mayrics lol hahaha i hope that i cannnnn.......... ITCHYWORMS......................... -_-

man.... i just found out i suck at things concerning infatuations... haha cant even control my own feelings... haha poor me... lol
Well anywayz.... till here.... buh bye

JCS blues lol

2006-03-04T22:55:00.000-08:00

i took this when i was waiting for Furby to come by and pick me up hahah.... vanity to the max... well forgive me! haha minsan minsan lng toh... n.n i rarely like my face. and basically thia is one of the shots i liked. n.n they say i look like demon though... but bah... who cares... hahaha

haha so yeah we were VERY late... we arrived about 6:30 pm i think... hahaha lol then we met up with martin and company at teriyaki boy. n.n but in the way...
Hahaha! *laughs in the bg*
we were climbing up the over pass to teriyaki boy, when suddenly my eyes spotted a familiar figure... and yes i was right... it was him. hahaha quickly told furby that it was HIM. He told me if i was certain and we went nearer <--- lol to check it out. Then suddenly furby said "It's Him! RUN!" lol My eyes went huge! and i saw furby running for the opposite direction. I turned around to see him and his friend climbing up the stairs.

My feet suddenly moved up and followed after furby!
hahah! super hilarious un! Pagnakit mo un tatawa ka sobra! It was like HE was going to eat us if he sees us or something. But i didnt want to deal with him shooting curious glances at me because i was there.
Anywayz... haha we hid! LOL saya noh! Lalo tuloy kami na delay! hahaha

Then when the it was clear... we ran to teriyaki boy... and found martin, alfonso and their friend sitting and chatting... i entered with furby. When they saw us they said hello and called us. haha gulat me the guy knows my name. but yeah duh... of course they'll tell him! haha
Haha n.n
So yeah i met their friend named Nicolo n.n He's very friendly and open. Kakatuwa. lol anywayz they ate pa so yeah lalong nagdelay paaaa.... lol
Tsaka nu pa ba... so yeah we went na... it was 8 pm hahaha so yeah 1 hour late no biggie right?

NO!
lol lock out na kami lol! the guard wouldnt let us in... annoying dude... lol
So yeah edi wala na! lol

we decided to walk to promenade lol ok naman un buong walk i learned new things about my friends and Nicolo... i had fun naman eh mas ok nga un eh just talking pero as usual i was quiet....

lol alfonso was running around petting cats lol XD

lol
Then Raffie also txted me na he was watching i was looking forward to seeing him.
then anu pa ba... when we arrived we went to fully booked... alfonso bought 2 books i think not sure... though... lol

they met some of xavier dudes... lol chatted with them and stuff... lol
I just stood there and smiled hahaha!

so yeah we went back and went to ashcreek starbucks... lol
we waited for raffie and others.
Hmmm...
Then yeah they arrived! Wee? lol Raffie was ssoooo hyper nagulat ako! hahaha indi ko kaya energy nya pero ok nga eh kakatuwa! Lol Hug ambush! LOL

then yeah went inside to buy drinks... i saw Brent haha wow didnt expect to see him there pero anywayz he was with his friends so we didnt get to talk. But anywayz... we took a pic lol n.n kaka tuwa n.n
And what else... YEAH!

Eto na... so yeah bought drinks... Then i finished my drink na...

when i turned the cup around i saw the pentel penned thing lol it wasnt my name... I was like %%&%^&?!!!!!!!!1
waaaaa! Oh my! i took the wrong one?! OH MY OH MY!!!!!!!
wala na................................................... -_-

Stupid meeeee.... why didnt look at the name?!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Gah....

oh noooo......... Then yeah the end hahahaha!
It was nakakailang kc parang the people passing around were looking at me and yeah there was an old creepy guy XD hahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!! -_-

cge hanggang dito nalng n.n
Interesting day! n.n I had fun.

NOthingness

2006-02-23T18:28:00.000-08:00

Arena

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Feb 5... escapade... hah

2006-02-05T06:13:00.000-08:00

Today is sunday. I work up early for church.
But before i talk about today I want to talk about yesterday...
There were 2 big events that happened yesterday... the Ultra incident and Franklin Graham Festival.
Yesterday Wowowee held a celebration on ULTRA for their 1st anniversary, sadly it didn't end up as a happy celebration. Death of many filipinos/fans of wowowee took the whole Philippines by surprise. I mean... a stampede... and the show wasn't even starting that time. What i find stupid is...
When the camera zoomed into the corpse, and the people who were looking at the bodies that lay lifeless in an area... the people surrounding the place where waving their hands and smiling at the camera!
I mean COME ON! can't they see this is a loss? this is such a sad time? Alot of people died! And they still manage to smile and stuff? They are stupid...
This is really what life is huh? How fragile and priceless a life can be...
As i see the relatives of the deceased bawl and sobbed, it made me realized how much important the people around me are. Hopefully those people dont blame God, i know when we face hard times we easily turn to God and blame Him, but this isn't right...
I know that you might tell me "Nica you dont know what you are saying... you haven't been through this.." But i have...
I have... i lost my grandfathers... i love them with all my heart... i was young i know... but i never blamed God. I encountered emotional pains and i know it's still the beginning... I had an urge to point my finger at Him. But i didn't dare... because He didn't want us to experience this pain. It was our fault in the first place.
Yes... this is my opinion as a christian. you might not all agree with me and i respect that.
I Hope those people understand how much God loves them, and He is beside them as we speak. I hope they take this chance to lean on God for comfort and support. Maybe this is just a sign that God is disapointed at us... because we have been just Losers... we failed... we did alot of stuff...

Then the 2nd event is the franklin Graham festival...
I went with my church yesterday... i was really happy how many believers there are... I hope they continue to grow and I hope they won't backslide.

They were dancing and singing for God. It was awesome.
Alot of people went there... i was really happy!

Then the event today was the xavier school fair:
haha! I thought i wasnt going na because wallis had left me... haha lol well my fault for not replying to his text... but then furby made a way! Yay! His Driver picked me up at my house exactly 2 pm. I was excited as usual... lol
I was excited for alot of things:
- i could see my BGC mates again

- i could see Xavier school for the first time

- i could be able to meet new people which i did

- I could go to a fair that isn't sshs'
- and i would have fun with my friends.
LOL... anywayz i arrived and waited inside furby's car for a long time hahaha! lol basically i was too chicken to come inside alone! hahaha! So when i entered na...
I saw their booth and hanged out for a few minutes... I met with Furby's kabooth and their teacher.
Alfonso was there too! lol XD so yeah... Xavier was pretty Big... I didn't get to see my old friends though...
I didn't get to ride anything either... but i guess it's cool...
Then after that they decided to play dota at powerplay? <--- right?? Anywayz... so... they ran! hahahaha! man! kakatuwa kaya! They said "Takbo! Tago! wag ka magpahuli sa flush, jail and marraige booth people, kung hindi patay ka!" so they were hiding and running...
hahaha! Tawa ako ng tawa un time na un!
so anywayz we went and played... as usual i sucked lol XD
it was fun thought kinda irritating cuz i kept dieing but it was cool...
I met alot of new people
- Willard
- Hart
- Andrew
- and brothers haha
- furby's big bro
Lol although didnt get to talk to them XD hahahaha! But still saw and met them n.n
anywayz i'm home now... lol
It's was a ok day n.n
Hopefully BGC will have a complete and proper reunion... haaay! haven't seen some of them yet! Lol!
Anywayz hanggang dito lng ata... hmmm okay

Bye
God Bless

-nica

Blank

2006-01-28T21:53:00.000-08:00

My cousins! Awww! Kirk, achie elynne, me, Ahiya Shaun, and Achie edilyn!
We celebrated Chinese New year at my house!

Awesome! i haven't met shaun for i think 3 years na! I still remember him running after us and catching us! lol
Laki na nya super! ehehehe! Lahat naman kami iba? Well... what else?
They went to Taal noh! super lucky! i'm stuck here at home... lol pero ok lng since... i got to do my project lol!

Oh yeah tama... hmmm... lol
anywayz... hahaha BGC outing didn't happen at all and i was so looking forward to it. Too bad... bka fair nalng noh? hopefully makapunta iba?

my family is getting hype up because i was invited to a soph nyt thing at jubilee.... grabe! gowns and dress overload dito! lol
Parang grabe... parang i'm getting married or something... not cool. it's weird.
lol hahah... pero ok rin. My aunt even told me to make sure i go there para experience daw.

Experience about what?! hahaha
lol
anywayz...

Anu pa ba? well... dunno... nothing much pa..... can't think....
anu pa ba..?
haay la ako masabi!

Another Day to Live

2006-01-16T05:23:00.000-08:00

YLC... Hmm... Memorable thing that has happened to me last year... it was great fun n.n
I regretted that i didnt share my testimony to them... but i never thought mine was important so it's ok i guess n.n
The people are awesome, i have talked to people i see everyday in church...

And the message is great, it really maden impact to me... and woke me up! The games like Team Building is cool... i mean i got to realize alot of stuff from a game! The guy who made that game is very clever.
Anywayz So... 2006...

Oh man... i can't believe it's already the 4th grading... i'm going to be a senior soon. And the prom is basically just months away from now. Vince invited me to go to their soph night, i agreed... i'm going to enjoy it!
Then BGC decided not to go to their soph night... well what the hey... i only wanted to go to soph night to see them right?
Well i'm dateless in my own prom. I'm thinking of not inviting anyone... I mean i don't need a date. But it seems awesome to have someone go with you. But i don't find it important.

Melisa invited me to be one of her staff, so yeah me and ithran n.n I agreed... i was hesitant at first. Because i was doubting myself. I mean what if i do something wrong... something i fear.... being humiliated or being rejected. Not good... But i have to face it sometime. And this is an opportunity God gave me so i decided to accept the invitation. Hopefully i'll do well n.n I'm kinda hesitant on the emcee thing.

Then we talked about the incoming YSC at Grace Gospel Church. Youth Summer Conference... at baguio... I invite you guys to come. I'm one of the staff in the registration commitee... Hopefully i can do well as well... I'm trying to do this for God. For Him and Him only!
They started practicing and meeting up for it. Oh man... we are so going to suffer when this con ends... We will end up counting the money and being responsible for it. Kinda scary. For me...

Then i want to learn drums this year, i asked Vincent to assist me... He agreed but i hope i have time for it. Cause i really really want to learn how to play. I have been trying to imitate him when they practice! hahaha! lol
Oh yeah then i'm considering trying out for p and w next time... But not auditioning for drums... maybe vocals if i have the guts and if i have the chance. Lol not that good. I don't even know if i'm using my diaphram! lol Oh man...

Then today i feel alone... I mean i know God is there but still... I feel that way! I'm trying to let go of my stupid feelings maybe because i know it ends up to just tears and pain. I have been too much of an emo lately and i hate it. Gah! I suck so much...
I feel a big void in me. And i know the cause... lol
Infatuations are infatuations no more no less... I guess i have to remember that. Guys are just born friendly... they dont intend something... Soo stupid me... so yeah i'm letting go v. 2.0 lol XD

Then what else is new? lol hmm...
oh yeah we have a meeting this friday then SSHS vs Xavier at 5:30 on wednesday! lol busy busy sched! lol XD
Then what else? Teens activity... we have tie dye etc... lol
Pacheco had been urging me to forgive him...
I mean i'm not mad at him anymore, he just basically hurted me...
But i told God i would forgive so i did.
But we aren't in speaking terms yet, jon told me... that me and him should talk. I'm hesitant at that. I might just end up shouting at him or something. I guess God will do the rest. i just to assured them that i'm not angry at him.

So what else? I have no idea... I guess this ends here. hmm... Oh yeah just got my haircut! Yay for short hair! i love my hair...
COMMENT!!!!
lol ok so yeah that's all i guess, Good Bye n.n
Pray for me please n.n
i'll post a pic of myself with my new hair as soon as possible! n.n

-nica

Writer or Artist?

2005-12-21T01:39:00.000-08:00

gah... Okay not the most decent pic... but hey who said i'm beautiful?

"The Painting"
by janica

Unreal paradise of abstract beauty,
moments in blissful no regrets;
colors that warmth my pale body,
Thanking God that you, I have met.

Every stroke of the wooden brush,
the details that portrays a different place;
happiness that will be left uncrushed,
the harmony of images in any case.

the parts that blend into a perfect piece,
you, whom i always felt at ease;
i as though am a painter's work;
with you, i forget the real world.

Same as you with your easel,
the painter's essence that even i cannot sell;
hang that art above my window sill,
the painting that makes life so surreal.

This poem is made by me, this is kind of like the first piece that i have made with the help of my english teacher. He's awesome... I'm proud of this poem.
This has a deeper meaning... not about painting itself... but the symbolism is what matters.
I hope you understood the meaning and i hoped you liked it.

Well... now back to my life. i was happy, i was back to myself... But someone managed to ruin it again. Goodness... This is the most time where i need God. I feel him and i feel His love, but i think i just need time to realize that i can't please everyone.

I had always tried hard to be liked by most people, that's why i'm like this... I'm Me... But somehow it's not possible... How hard i try to please everyone once in a while.. someone is going to backstab, back talk and other things.
And you know what?
It hurts alot... especially when it comes from one of my friends mouth. I'm Thankful for those whom God gave me, those who i can really trust and love. But sadly they are not much from those who i can't trust, even though if i try. Something always goes wrong.

It's really funny how much i care don't i? But i really do... care i mean. Friends or not... i care... No i'm not saying i don't have a person whom i'm annoyed with or i dislike. Yes honestly i do, but even though i care enough to know that i still should respect them and try not to criticize them or hurt them through my words.
People sometimes call people nasty things, it's really a wonder... because some of them are either you fellow classmates, people whom you thought you were close with and even sometimes whom you have been attached to.

From the televisions show to real life, people criticize people call them names and even hurl insults at them. I'm going to be mean when i say... You people are such arseheaded freaks. Have you never thought how much this will affect a person, losing pride, ego, and even leaving them a thought that makes them look degrading. I find you guys so inconsiderate and just plain crap... I mean... how much would you want. You tell lies you trick people into thinking you were friends and you are just going to hurt them...
Our lives, feelings, thoughts and equally fragile, a perspective or a word from people can cause that fragile part of us... can damage us... even through little ways it does.

So I don't pity anyone who gets something bad in their way for back talking and back stabbing... because you deserve it!

It' embarrassing to know fellow people, fellow chinese, fellow christian, fellow classmates and all other fellows there are... that judges people in mean ways. Before you judge go stare at your reflection and by chance you might be worse.

Our school fair was fun, thanks to hannah, criselda, caroline, paopao, jackilyn and all others to be there to have fun. I hope you enjoyed it! Because i did! n.n Let's do that next year! hahaha
So yeah what else?

Ylc is coming up i'm excited but some problems will be coming with. Darn... It suck to know that. But I'm glad that i could enjoy my times, worshipping God, being with friends, being my age, and hopefully growing.
I hate hypocrites those you claim they are christians but in the end ruins God's rep and all other christians...
They act holy in church while they say curse words, are utterly maniac like pornography, warfreaks, bullies and other stuff... They do it at school or work.
Be ashamed hypocrites, you might be able to decieve people... but God fully knows each one of us.
Yeah we do have our backslides and we sometimes doubt and lose... but basically if we are true to our faith we come right up and never WHINE nor complain to God... Because we know even though how hard life is... God is there for us...
He might not pull us out from every problems, because he know we can do it on our own... If we find ourselves doubting or complaining or giving up hope... Stop it...
Being pitied by other people is not good, we should look up at each day as a challenge to grow more for God and to strengthen our relationship with Him.

I guess.... that's all... You might not agree with my beliefs or opinions... and i stand frm on mine so don't bother flaming me... Because it won't work...
I say i'm not perfect But yet God knows my flaws and still thinks i'm worth it...
n.n
I thank God that He is there for me... n.n

He Makes my Day nice... turns my crappy day into paradise... sigh

2005-12-02T07:11:00.000-08:00

Hay Naku! Gerick naman talaga oh! naadik tuloy ako kay Mika... lol Crescent Moon! The Best! n.n
haha... so yeah... well today wasn't all happy as i expect it to be... i talked with him days ago... haha kinda dropped my hyper mood... tapos nasira pa talaga araw ko kanina.

Want my opinion? I think School is Crappy... it made my day bad... The people and everyone... I mean i understand the others... Some are my friends whom I enjoy being with. But I'd rather stay at home than go to school... It seems funny how i once looked at school as fun. But i guess i totally stand on my opinion when i say i hate school... no not schools in general. But How the school and the people affect me so much.
I'm not being cocky or anything... But it just sucks... Everytime i go to school i would try to give everyone a smile and try to look positive but there is always something that in the end will just twist me all up!

Today was a so-so day... I wasnt so hyper... I felt something bad is going to happen and it did... I hate Nosy People... as much as i dont criticize and judge... I just hate em' I like to keep my school life and the people in it in one corner and set it aside and keep it as far as away as my great HAPPY church life... I mean no offence to the people at school... But Church is basically a haven compared to school.
I dont want church and school to meet up and know each other (not literally of course) I'm afraid church is going to be like school one day... I dont want anything or anyone destroying the only motivation for me to Live and be Happy...

Not even my friends...

I Love Them all... My friends but basically they never stop when i say NO! I find it ticking me off... why cant when i say no i dont want... why can't they respect my wish?! I mean is it too hard? Do they want to ruin my whole life and suck all the few happiness that i have on me... I dont want to put stuff on details becuz i want to forget this... i just want to pour it out today...

Sister is living in my grandma's house... so basically no one hug to talk to... gah... I do miss her even though i dont show it... she means a lot to me... my family means a lot to me...
My cousin is right when she said everyone needs someone... Someone to talk to just someone to be with them... to listen to laugh with... just there for you.
And i dont have that ONE...

I feel gladness mixed with sadness in me right now...
I find it hard to explain...

i just want soembody to show they care... to be able to hug me without hesitation and listen to me... I need that someone who would make my crappy day into paradise...
It's hard to keep it all in... but i have to... because there is no one for me...
gah... need to straighten this out now...
Okay i got to go... n.n

We are going to do our comp prj. tomorrow and oh yeah go to the dentist... lol....
Thank God it's FRIDAY! church tomorrow... the only place where i feel protected and loved...
The only place where i leave behind reality for awhile...

Uno

2005-11-15T21:44:00.000-08:00

Hmmm... New Haircut actually... not... but anywayz new decent Pic! I'm soo... addicted to sticking my face on the TV! yeah people! That's TV! Not whatever you may think of!

So yeah... i think this pic is cool... Too bad i look like a guy... but who cares?! haha... I just look good on it and that's what matters! Well basically nothing new today just wanted to post! Oh yeah layout on my website is basically near to done! n.n Oh yeah ultimate Killer Doll done! I love it so much!

Oh and yeah I paid up for YLC so i'm definitely coming! It's going to be fun! My friends are going to be there and my sister wont be able to come but that'll teach me to be independent... right? Haha... Basically Hopefully I meet more people... I'm trying to socialize with different kinds of people... Kasi I was so shy dati, but now it's cool!

Oh yeah got my interest and job test results at school... and yeah... it's notsurprising that I got highest in Artistic right? haha... Oh yeah Art on job too! I can get athletic jobs as well... well.... that's what the test said... so yeah... lol I got High on Math! Super shocker! grabe! Totally mixed up ata un result na un! Hmph! I mean there must be some kind of mistake tapos Science din daw pede ako... hahaha

Oh yeah super laki ng binaba ko sa average kooo.... Hinayang akoooo.... 83.16 to 81.88 I'm soo ashamed ha! La na... i'm not top 4 anymore... top 13 lng... haay put i promised na hahabol ako this quarter! Lol!
Got 93 in English! The only 90+ in english, lol! Me! Oh yeaaaah!!!! Stepping stone toh!

And oh yeah! Lol Grabe Sentimental Fool is gone! I have let gooo people! So right in your face tooot!
lol i'm not mad at him so dont ask... haha i just want to be cocky at least for just tonight... haha! I'm so happy! Goodness!!!! n.n Well.... He made me forget Him! so He rocks!!!!! Goodness pagclose ko un bka nahug ko na sya...

Oh yeah did some bonding time with Kristel kanina... took me 55 pesos... grabe! Surfing kc eh! i-surf girl told me "Uy! bagong Haircut ah!"
Haha... so embarrassed!!! Lol she met BLC members! hahah ang saya talaga sila n.n
BLC rules noh! At indi occult toh! Kaya pfffft!!!!

Anywayz anu pa ba?? so yeah... I still have test in Trigo... pamatay! At walang team teaching tomorrow... too bad... pero we will go to stephenian hall daw to do something... Well okay lng un! Hahaha... JS prom pala lapit na rin and the soph night at xavier haha! Totally want to go.... >.> *goes off to find someone who would ask me* Hahaha... basically no idea ako kung sinu kasama ko sa prom ko... haha

I mean who the heck would ask? I'm not pretty naman! Kaya i'm not expecting much! lol Maybe friends ko lng kasama ko okay na un... Pero i mean... ewan ko... Dati mern na ako kasama eh pero i dont know pag gusto parin niya... Haaay his descision naman un iba?

So i leave it up to him nalang...

Indi naman ako madededbol pag walang ka prom na date! hahaha! Micheal had been telling me to cry to have a date hahaha... no way noh!
I want to go to their soph night para makita ko sila! Un lng naman motive ko eh! Haay naku!!! Wala nang pagasa un!

Tapos grabe... I already got a dress for it... haha excited noh? haha luma na un damit... simple but i like it! n.n I like simple... super over naman pag bongga sobra... Grabe 15 na pala ako malapit na mag 18 in 3 years hahaha.... what the... what am i thinking??!!!!

Tama na nga toh! Haaay i think it's because i blog tooo much! Gotta stop na... hopefully mern naman nagbabasa ng mga tinetype ko iba?! Super sayang naman if wala nagbabasa... i mean i just wasted my priceless time... haay so yeah comment kauu!!!!

And i will love you forever na! I promise! Comment ha!

Cge Over and Out! Super got to go na... got to go Ym! hahahaha Adik ako noh?!
well ikaw rin naman so patas tau!

Check out my multiply account ha! Rami new pics!

Sentimental Fool

2005-11-14T04:59:00.000-08:00

Oh goodness... I'm inlooove! With who you ask? Well Vincent Valentine! haha!
Lol i'm basically cooling off with having likes and having assumed love with guys... Real Life guys i mean! Man! That last pain and cry for that guy totally messed me up real good! And i'm definitely not going in the path again...

But i know i will...

Gah... Had so much fun Last Weekend and the last last weekend! Grabeee!~ I laughed and smiled so much! Thanks for the people i was with! Great sobraaaa! Thanks to Sister, JP, JC, Vincent, RykGem, wehehehe... sinu pa ba.... hmmm Achie Joyce! Hmmm.... Ah! Si Ralph! Grabe basta rami! You made my week so awesome! Thanks!
So basically last last Sunday we went to GCF! Grabe i listened to the speaker tapos and laki ng place, tapos ang rami din ng people... super halo halo! Sila Ahiya Aaron, Achie Lenny... tsaka un mga namention ko sa taas!
We ate and i got to talk with Ralph na taga Jubilee! Grabe un noh! indi pa nagone year magaral ng guitar super galing naaa..........

Haay! Back to school nanaman... so far so good... Trying to lift my grades up! Siguro la ako sa top ten sa second quarter! Super kc na bwisit ako because of that problem i had with Him...
I never did see him these past few days... pero i think it's better din! Kc malaki impact nya sa akin!

Paid for YLC na pala! So sure na I'm going! Yeah!!!! n.n I'm so going to enjoy that! And nothing is going to let me feel down! Thank you God for being there!
Thank you... sobraaa....
Tapos i helped out with the Mission Con... I help set the tables and ushered some people to their seats! Super okay! Tapos un show pa nun 7:30 ang saya! n.n It was funny and interesting!

Tapos nagdota kami nun Sunday! I watch JP, Vincent and Ralph practice for YLC! n.n haha ganda songs! n.n Lol.... wanna play drums.... gahhh!!
Nag dota kami! I killed RykGem and Erwin <-- tama ba one time... haha! Saya!!! Pero naiinis ako sa huling game eh! Ako pinagtritripan!!

Lol sige na! Till here nalng!
Good luck!

Goodness!

2005-10-19T15:25:00.000-07:00

hmm... gah! Finals na!
Gah... Time to hit the books and get huge eyebags and go mad from studying!
Gosh! It's already 3rd grading next time around! And sem break pa!

So... Basically our chinese finals is tomorrow... haha and i'm not yet into the studying mode... do i have one to begin with? lol Haha... Half day today! Lol... Relaxation for now and exhaustion later!

Hmm... so been trying to do something for someone... Might go to the ICA fair on saturday... I'm quite actually looking forward to it! lol
Goodness... My voice sucks and i sound like a sick something...

Hah so yeah... I'm bored... Goodness... So leave me comments or testimonials in friendster! Haha been along time since i played dota... grabe miss it so much! Cge nga... Sinu nagbabasa ng blogs ko? Plz post comments! haha I'm trying to see sinu sinu un nagbabasa nito!

Grabe exams na naman... lol wla na tuloy ako masulat dito...
well... I HAVE NO LIFE... la naman to begin with kaya lol! Wala lng gusto ko lng magannounce! Nothing to do kc eh!

SO BORED!

Hmm... I found that cute pic... pero weird sya haha...
Anywayz trying out realistic nude drawing... Pero nid ko un book na kinuha ng cousin ko... haha siguro next week ko nalng makukuha un!

aahahaha...
Okay gtg bye!

Tug Of War! Round 2!

2005-10-15T07:59:00.000-07:00

Round Two! (Tug Of war!)
Hah!

Haay... Well I was supposedly to meet Charm, Cristine and Wei in the lobby at 9am... But noo indianin pa naman ako...
Anywayz so I went to school for absolutely nothing. What a waste of time!!! I was hungry, annoyed and irritated by the fact that they didnt even tell me! Grr.... gah!
Ahh... anywayz ooh! I tried the Game called Rose-online... haha was clueless! I was with Ahiya Ron that time! Okay naman siya overall pero boring sya kc same as ro eh... But i had fun naman! Haha iniwan ako eh! sows!
Umm...

Then i hurried back home to chang my skirt because it was round 2 at sportfest at church... lol!
Hmm... so we sang and such and proceeded to the basketball area to play... The blue rope was lying on the ground and while Wallis explained the things... we listened of course!

Haha so basically we won in the first game so whoever wins... will be facing us! The defending winners bwahaha! Grabe laki na ulo ko... lol!
Grabe so group 2 won... so it was us and them... super rami nila! so we asked Hans and bubun to substitute for us! In my heart i thought sure win na sila. But oh my! we Won!

Big Shocker actually! n.n Pero edi okay iba? saya naman ako haha, although my feet are dirty because i took my sandals off unlike the last time... grabe i still remember it!
Haha... fun!
Battle of the generals next week... hmmm.... i wonder what that is...

Haay finals na this week ng chinese... lol!
So moody parin ako this week... because a certain story i heard...
Ang sakit sobra... i mean... I won't love again... hahab kung love pa naman un iba?

So yeah... gtg! Bye!

One in a Million!

2005-10-08T22:01:00.000-07:00

Haha... So if you are at my church joining the Teens Fellowship earlier... Then you would have a bigger idea about what happened! Hahah!

I became a superhero and almost came crashing to my Guy friend haha! It was nerve-racking and funny at the same time... Oh goodness... I'm sharing! Savor this moment guys! Lol
I felt as if i heart has fallen out of my chest! haha!

We were having a game where we have to run to get the green hankerchief then answer the question... So I was number 4... My Guy friend was seated at the back and a little to the right... (My point of view since I was facing my guy friends front) of the stack of chairs that has the hankerchief on.

So they asked the question then shouted "Number 4" I was running towards to the chairs... haha i was first and i got the green hankerchief but then i went straight to the right side and I can't stop. I was slipping and losing control and balance!
I was headed towards my guy friend who has an injury... lol i was like "Hala hala!!! Oh no I'm going to hit him!"
I can't stop... I came close to him and luckily I stopped in time... I was literally infront of him... he was seated and looking at me with wide eyes... I was too! haha It was totally a funny yey embarrassing moment! because everyone who's at the fellowship saw me slip and stuff!

After i finished answering the question which is "Mary"
Haha... When I turned around to return to my place... They were applauding loudly!
I felt embarrassed! haha! It was funny!
They teased me and stuff but after that it gave me a good laugh! hahaha

It was the nicest biggest smile and laugh i ever done this year! I guess because life has been crappy lately! Haha I guess it shook me up huh?

Lol! anywayz our group won round 1! 7 points yeah!
After my great scene... People had been slipping and falling down as well!
haha I felt as if i was in an action movie! haha Funny!!!

lol... anywayz i'll never forget this blooper of mine!

-nica

Holding on...

2005-09-27T13:45:00.000-07:00

Holding on? Is it worth it? Wanting to Hold on... But Feeling like letting go...

My Heart Holds an empty place,
An Unknown cause for this hole;
I Long for that piece that overflows my heart.
A fire that heats the coal...

In my heart you Grasped,
So hard they can hear my burning cry;
Of the time you left and deserted me,
I could hear the moon softly sigh;

He tells of how he looked at me,
The time where i felt it was right;
The moment when i was finally free;
He left me in the middle of the night...

Not even a word or a goodbye that i know,
No trace of love that I thought was there;
It seems that I should just give up...
Wanting to hold on... but feeling of letting go...

Wow... What a crappy poem I made...
Well... I felt the urge of that. It seems weird but i myself have no idea why.
This thought never escaped my mind when i finally knew that I Liked him alot...
Oh isnt it?
Lol... Well i'll get over it right?
Yes... College... people to meet and to know, Lots of people to talk to and laugh with.
But I feel happy with my state right now... The friends i have and the people around me.

Life is great... through ups and downs i conquered and praised God... n.n
He's so good and great!
God is awesome!

Oh My goodness... Exams coming up and my bday! Woo! Sept 30 dudes!
Remember and think bout it when you buy stuff!
Add me to your list! hahaha
Just kidding...

anywayz gotta go!

Oh Pleasant Day!

2005-09-13T21:00:00.000-07:00

Firstly I would like to take this time to thank some people who had helped me alot...
(JV, Raphael, Bunbun, Kyle, Lucky, Hannah,Ron, Kenrick, Bernie and even Pacheco for just listening)
You guys are really nice people, helped me alot.. And i want to say thank you. This might not mean alot for you but for me it's the gesture that warmths my heart. No! I won't be mushy on you guys... haha but I want to say atleast a Thank you...

In those times i just wanted to talk, I wanted to speak up my feelings and you guys gave me a chance... n.n Thank you for giving me that chance... I just want to say that I would gladly do the same to you... n.n

I feel better now... I had never laughed so much in my lifetime... and this is so awesome... haven't laughed like this, this year! Thank you Charm for the fun cleaning time! haha Should love English more right?
I decided to let her go... I'm tired and i just decided to let go.
So I feel more better and Free...

I feel so relaxed right now... and this feels so nice... I would never take this feeling for granted. Church made me forget temporary... Thank you Criselda for trying to make me laugh while 3rd service... My verge of breakdown you stood beside me. Thank you...

I'm just filled with calmness and i wouldnt want anything to ruin it...
Although I will get 70 for science because i didn't pass the project... gah... stupid printer...
Oh by the way... I'm not frustrated and mad at her... I decided to forget it... we are people right?
But it'll never be the very same...
But I forgave and i'm happy... I'm not mad at her!

But Anywayz just want to say Thank you... n.n You guys are the best!
-nica

Bestfriend you BIG FAT ASS!

2005-09-09T05:25:00.000-07:00

Argh! My Goodness I just found out what a freak my so-called "bestfriend" is... She's completely phsyco! How dare she back stab me? Backstab her stupid big fat ass!
so i guess lemme see.... ( i edited some nasty language)
i didn't do anything to her... she got mad at me for no fucking reason. Well i lost my patience!
Her stupid mouth should be plastered! All the words that come out of her mouth are either judgemental or freaking gross as in "porn gross"
Then she tells different people of how much she is being looked down and she being the good one. Well she's an ass! She's the one who teases me with such evil words! I forgave and forgot! But nooo! She decided to make fun of me..... She decided to ruin my crappy life and make me look bad!

I'm so ashamed of even thinking that I became her friend... bestfriend?! You know who you are... how "plastic" can you get! i abhor you... Did you even stop to think that i get hurt by the words you say? I never did insult you! I stood by you, i would stay with you longer than your "friends" but noooooooooo! You wanted to be freaking popular and you wanted attention!

You used me!!!!! I have the right to get bitchy to you! Because you hurted alot of people enough! How dare you pull my other friend into this?! I'm so disgusted by you!
You?? being used?! you??? being joked about?! Joke my ass! you used me... you made fun of me..... and yet i had no idea why i decided to be patient with you.......
but no more! I can take this stuff anymore... you just don't know how it feels to be insulted!
We accepted you! Now i don't think I can take this joke anymore.
Don't expect me to talk to you again!
I hope you don't get nasty consequences... because you might faint with the full blast of insulting you did!
I have no right to judge... so I'll let God judge you!

I'm so sick and tired of you...
You never did care did you? You act all innocent... i'm so ashamed of you.........
I hope someone would slap you to wake up... because you are becoming too catty for me...
and no one takes that lightly! You had been telling lies about me....... i have no idea what you are thinking... but it's the last thing i could handle.....
I never did use you! I loved you as a friend! I cherished our friendship!
But you! You never did!
I'm so stupid for being patient with you....
You completely detroyed my self esteem and ruined my ego...
I have no idea what to do with you............. this is my final adios to you!
continue talking bad stuff about me...... i don't care what you think anymore... because you mean nothing to me no longer.......

Outing~

2005-09-04T07:10:00.000-07:00

Well GGC 3rd year... my batchmates at church went to and outing at robinsons galleria. Lol I'm a bit happy that almost everyone went. Well My life has been hell lately and i consider this outing as my relaxation boost.
Well... It's wasn't that relaxing...

We ate at Pizza Hut... i just ate one slice. Which is pretty unusual for me... I guess my mood had totally changed me. Well the guys trick Kyle to sit infront of me... yeah yeah...
Oh yeah... it was fun at pizza hut. The best part actually haha... we did some talking which lifted up my spirits.
Haha i just realized Wilbert was a great conversationalist... haha

so anywayz some bloopers happened... haha
and we headed for skybowl? to do our bowling and billards... well bowling was cool i got 34 points... pretty lame score lol. Oh yeah... then went to the other side for billards... I shot one. Then I got tired and decided to borrow Lucky's mp3 player to just stare into space. Well I'm feeling sad, happy and disapointed right now. haha

well i got dizzy from the chocolate cream i bought.... hahaha from star bucks... that's what pretty much what happened in my sucky life...
I was the second to the last to go to uncle's house... dizzy hella....
well got to go....

Crap!

2005-08-30T06:37:00.000-07:00

I'm sick of the routine we call life... My life had fallen into tiny pieces... and no one is able to break it anymore. I feel the urge of wanting to fade away.
This Life has no Life anymore... and it sucks... I feel i can only find comfort through God, I guess this is an instance where i can take that chance~ I found a way to kill my time. It's by writing very sick songs... I'm trying to make another sing called "Solemn Goodbye" Hopefully it won't sound childish and crappy... I hate being looked down... lol

Oh yeah just got our grades in the report card i got the average of 83.2 in english... i guess I have the chance to reach 2nd section. It's the only positive thing that happened in my Life... No one feels my pain...
I feel so moody, yet I can't pinpoint the very reason of it all... maybe i know... it's just i don't want to believe it...

Hate
I hate him for leading me on
I hate him for ever making me special
I hate him for liking me, then walking away
I hate him for smiling at me that way
walking with me...
talking to me...
I just hate him because of him.

I'm singing this stupid song because he made me cry...
I feel my heart rippin' open and shatterin' to pieces...
I can't take it anymore!
I don't want to tell... but I miss him...

I hate myself for being naive
I hate myself for liking him
I hate myself for being too soft
Forget it! Forget it!
I just hate him, i hate myself... for being a fool.
For thinking and wishing that I could be his...

I have no idea what tune i have for that lyrics... but i want it to become a song... It's crappy but hey... I hate thinking about it. I just wrote what I feel... And that's what came out I guess.
I hate myself for having no reason to hate him.
I hate him for entering my dreams...
I hate myself that I let him make an impact in my Life...
I hate him for making me look like a fool.

Ugh... i hate this... Argh!!!! I guess I should go now... I'm in no mood to say nice stuff...
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First Impression? Starting entry...

2005-08-23T23:35:00.000-07:00

Hey... Hmm I guess this is my first Entry here...
Don't expect my blogs to be flowery and sweet and nice; I'm not in anyway that kind of girl.

I talk about my life and the people i meet, but I'm never into details when into shopping or stuff... You will expect some serious ramblings and Broken hearted Screams from my posts.

So anywayz... Welcome to my Blog. Yes... Formal... yes...
I'm a female, junior highschooler and I'm into arts and etc... And yes i do have a life... So before we begin I warn you not to flame me or else...

^ Oh my goodness... My inhumane picture is just plain huge!?! ^
forgive the scary picture above and just ignore it's sillyness... Don't laugh at it nyaha...

I headed to school... Well two of our teachers was not here so basically we had 3 periods of freetime. Lol Just what I needed... I wanted to finish my drawing so badly. And I finished 3/4 in school and the rest at home. It's quite messy but it does have symbolism and such.

Once I get the scanner working I'll post it and explain it here ASAP. So it's quite a boring day except for the part that I finished my work. I'm absolutely proud of it too... lol It's abit messy but all in all it's okay... I mean my top got dirty and black sploches... haha but worth it... n.n
So anywayz We did our chinese essay, well I wasn't happy with my work but I just have to finish it so I did...
We have loads of tests on thursday... annoying teachers drowning us with tests for one day... why can't they make it friday or monday?!
I swear... soon enough my head will explode and my eyeballs will pop out from all this studying.

I'm getting tired of the same routine everyday, I mean I'm contented but it's just seem over... I get tired easily of the day and eager to end it as soon as possible. My only haven is when I'm sleeping...

Speaking of sleeping... might as well sleep... hahaha

Good night and Bye...